Something for everyone

So here i lay myself bare...on what matters to me.
I hope you will love me as much as i love you, because, the more i love you, the more it hurts - when you don't seem to know. Or care.

xoxo

Black-tie

So yesterday was the first black-tie event i've attended. 

Had a blast people-watching. I am not made for high-society but i think i camo quite well.

Food was all right, Laura Fygi was wonderful, and the company was great. 

:)

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I wonder all the time, on how is it like to be part of somebody's life... and i find it hard to settle for less. Until i find you.

Storming thru

Ripplevox, pick me to trial StarHub’s BlackBerry® Storm smartphone because I am a total crackberry, oops, i mean, blackberry fanatic! I use it for work (i am not complaining @ all!), personal (my friends don't understand why i absolutely love the bb). The BB is the greatest thing to be created after sliced bread and airconditioning!! I even sleep with my bb *that's two of them* but i am absolutely loyal to RIM/BB in general. (ref to picture above: left-handside bb belongs to the younger brother. The Curve is my personal phone, and the BB8707G is from the office). 

The Storm will be in good hands, definitely. I promise!

Back to School ~

I really do want to make it back to school. To carve out a better life for myself. 

This has to happen. I will make it happen. 

I will stick with this until i hear more about it from you.

Horsing Around

I really hate to be seen as horsing around - but i don't think all the travelling i've done is a waste of money and time.

I don't have a good relationship with money - i don't know how to keep it with me. So it goes into everything else that i enjoy doing.

Don't tell me how to save. My plans will work out by themselves. No one has ever died from a lack of savings - there will always be avenues to fund one thing or the other. Financial independence is important, i know. I have some savings. Never enough for the big plans but i have faith that everything will work out eventually. I can't always be planning for the future and not enjoy the present yes?

So, let me live this path that i've chosen.

Going all the way

It's time to do this for me and eventually, do what's the best for you and I.
I hope that you will stand by me. I will come back to you still, like how a dog will never forget its owner.

What I wanted to tell you...

So I hope that you will never forget how fragile life is. Whatever you hold dearest to your heart will be torn away, broken before you know it, or see it coming - so don't ever forget how important it is to always tell your loved ones how much they mean to you. 

It's real. This brevity of life. This speed at which this flame diminishes without you knowing about it. 

Cherish this life. Cherish your time with your loved ones. 

Love.

Christmas will never be the same...

So yesterday, i woke up to a text msg that chilled me to my bones. One that made my heart sank so low, i couldn't breathe for a while. 

A bad news, that shouldn't have happened. A news that made me tear. Broke my heart. 

I curse the ones who did the act. I curse that their souls will be burnt in hell, eternally. I curse that they will have nightmares of unimaginable fear that they will always be looking back when they are alive. I curse that they will never live in peace for they knew what acts they've done. Even if they confess to their sins to GOd, they will never be cleansed of the blood on their hands, nor forgiven for the pain they've caused to the families who love him dearly. 

And most of all, i pray that the broken hearts will be mended, bit by bit, day by day. No one should ever be made to go through anything like this. No one. 

What I really meant to tell you...

Today, I finally understood why the need to be alone has pre-occupied my mind.

People tire me out. They anger me. And more often than not, they can be total disappointments. Even family.

When i am by myself, there is no such negative emotions eating into me. 

So, I need to work on making more time for myself. I know that I for one, will not disappoint or tire myself out. 

My silence is not because i don't care anymore. It's precisely because I care too much, i rather not let it affect me anymore because you, no matter how much I try, will never try to make your life better. 

My life is good the way it is. You don't have a part to play.

Lunch, anyone?

Palek Paneer, Le Meridian - Latest Recipe

Fish Paella (above) and Spanish Omelette (below), La Bodega@Pavilion KL

Buffet Spread, Le Meridian KL

So i have this crazy idea - that every other weekend, i will fly to Malaysia for lunch or dinner. So that i fulfill this crazy urge to eat everything in the world and because Singapore's getting way to expensive for me to splurge, i should do it elsewhere. Somewhere nearby. And somewhere where my dollar will stretch.

I love eating. And I am possibly quite mad.