Reflections...

If there is a reason for everything to be the way they're, I thank God for putting me in this place - where I've learnt more than what I've bargained for. 

I am grateful for everyday that I wake up to, because who knows when I might slip away. 

I am indeed, blessed: 

For my family whom i fiercely love despite all the shortcomings;

For the girls who complete me, and put up with me. I get mad, disappointed and annoyed, as they do with me too. And I am grateful for the forgiveness received and love dispensed. 

For the people I work with; who trust me, encourage and share a part of their lives with me. We get chuffed by each other sometimes, but ultimately, please know that I respect you with a capital R

Life is never easy, and it is only with hope and faith that i am able to get through the difficulties and challenges. Be with me. 

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Ecclesiastes 3

A Time for Everything

 ¹ There is a time for everything, 
       and a season for every activity under heaven:

 ² a time to be born and a time to die, 
       a time to plant and a time to uproot,

 ³ a time to kill and a time to heal, 
       a time to tear down and a time to build,

 ⁴ a time to weep and a time to laugh, 
       a time to mourn and a time to dance,

 ⁵ a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them, 
       a time to embrace and a time to refrain,

 ⁶ a time to search and a time to give up, 
       a time to keep and a time to throw away,

 ⁷ a time to tear and a time to mend, 
       a time to be silent and a time to speak,

 ⁸ a time to love and a time to hate, 
       a time for war and a time for peace.

Something for everyone

So here i lay myself bare...on what matters to me.
I hope you will love me as much as i love you, because, the more i love you, the more it hurts - when you don't seem to know. Or care.

xoxo

Black-tie

So yesterday was the first black-tie event i've attended. 

Had a blast people-watching. I am not made for high-society but i think i camo quite well.

Food was all right, Laura Fygi was wonderful, and the company was great. 

:)

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I wonder all the time, on how is it like to be part of somebody's life... and i find it hard to settle for less. Until i find you.

Storming thru

Ripplevox, pick me to trial StarHub’s BlackBerry® Storm smartphone because I am a total crackberry, oops, i mean, blackberry fanatic! I use it for work (i am not complaining @ all!), personal (my friends don't understand why i absolutely love the bb). The BB is the greatest thing to be created after sliced bread and airconditioning!! I even sleep with my bb *that's two of them* but i am absolutely loyal to RIM/BB in general. (ref to picture above: left-handside bb belongs to the younger brother. The Curve is my personal phone, and the BB8707G is from the office). 

The Storm will be in good hands, definitely. I promise!

Back to School ~

I really do want to make it back to school. To carve out a better life for myself. 

This has to happen. I will make it happen. 

I will stick with this until i hear more about it from you.

Horsing Around

I really hate to be seen as horsing around - but i don't think all the travelling i've done is a waste of money and time.

I don't have a good relationship with money - i don't know how to keep it with me. So it goes into everything else that i enjoy doing.

Don't tell me how to save. My plans will work out by themselves. No one has ever died from a lack of savings - there will always be avenues to fund one thing or the other. Financial independence is important, i know. I have some savings. Never enough for the big plans but i have faith that everything will work out eventually. I can't always be planning for the future and not enjoy the present yes?

So, let me live this path that i've chosen.

Going all the way

It's time to do this for me and eventually, do what's the best for you and I.
I hope that you will stand by me. I will come back to you still, like how a dog will never forget its owner.

What I wanted to tell you...

So I hope that you will never forget how fragile life is. Whatever you hold dearest to your heart will be torn away, broken before you know it, or see it coming - so don't ever forget how important it is to always tell your loved ones how much they mean to you. 

It's real. This brevity of life. This speed at which this flame diminishes without you knowing about it. 

Cherish this life. Cherish your time with your loved ones. 

Love.

Christmas will never be the same...

So yesterday, i woke up to a text msg that chilled me to my bones. One that made my heart sank so low, i couldn't breathe for a while. 

A bad news, that shouldn't have happened. A news that made me tear. Broke my heart. 

I curse the ones who did the act. I curse that their souls will be burnt in hell, eternally. I curse that they will have nightmares of unimaginable fear that they will always be looking back when they are alive. I curse that they will never live in peace for they knew what acts they've done. Even if they confess to their sins to GOd, they will never be cleansed of the blood on their hands, nor forgiven for the pain they've caused to the families who love him dearly. 

And most of all, i pray that the broken hearts will be mended, bit by bit, day by day. No one should ever be made to go through anything like this. No one. 

What I really meant to tell you...

Today, I finally understood why the need to be alone has pre-occupied my mind.

People tire me out. They anger me. And more often than not, they can be total disappointments. Even family.

When i am by myself, there is no such negative emotions eating into me. 

So, I need to work on making more time for myself. I know that I for one, will not disappoint or tire myself out. 

My silence is not because i don't care anymore. It's precisely because I care too much, i rather not let it affect me anymore because you, no matter how much I try, will never try to make your life better. 

My life is good the way it is. You don't have a part to play.